So, I’ve been away hanging out in my own *shit for the last 6 months or so.
I’m still wading in it and, with summer coming, I don’t suspect it’s going to start smelling any better unless I start to clean it up.
Tonight I was laying in bed at 7:20 feeling pissed off at the world because I felt like everyone was grabbing at my brain, and then it occurred to me. It was my own damn fault. I let people dictate how I spend my time and then I resent it. Please feel sorry for me. <—-sarcasm
I jumped out of bed, cleaned out my office (it’s been a shithole for the past 4 months-making me feel angry about working in it-go figure) and dusted off my drum kit.
My drums are basically a representation of my self-neglect. Drumming is something I do for ME. One of the only things I have for ME. And, I’ve ignored them for almost a year. So, in essence, I’ve ignored myself that entire time.
My books are another good indicator of how well I’m taking care of myself. They keep accumulating on my night table, being ignored.
Now, they are staring at me, expecting to be noticed.
It’s time.
I’m going to be a drumming, writing, singing, reading fool. Again.
*Not my literal shit. Come on. You know, “shit”: my own self-loathing, self-bullying, self-analyzing. My STUFF. Shit. Trust me, I’m very hygienic.
Sarcasm is one of the many services I provide. “Where I am” is stuck in the burbs of a beautiful city in Canada. "Where I Belong" is downtown, in any city; maybe even your city...enjoying the sites, sounds and culture that it possesses. “Who I am”…Well that is a longer story!….. Multi-faceted, music lover, who loves deeply, yet finds opportunity in pointing out the humour in the often ridiculous behaviour of the human species. I am very sincere and professional at work, but in my private life I tend to speak my mind. Sometimes to my own demise. This is my private, anonymous place to goof off. I like to put the F.U. in Fun. Enjoy.
YES.
Thank you for sharing your experience of self rediscovery. I have been in a slump with my rock climbing and feel like it’s a part of me that I’ve been ignoring. I have been putting a lot of effort into a few other neglected areas of my life and feel a wonderful sense of connection to my true self and this wonderful universe. I hope you continue on your path of reigniting all your fires. You are already glowing. <3
I’m really impressed with your writing skills and also with the layout on your blog. Is this a paid theme or did you customize it yourself? Either way keep up the excellent quality writing, it’s rare
to see a great blog like this one these days.
Hi there….Thank you for the compliment. A friend of mine helped design it. I think it’s a regular theme, though I can’t be sure.